Game plan

So I realized that as of late I am unhappy with my body and really need to get my ass in gear. I used the word "realized" loosely as it was not exactly a shock, but I was kind of avoiding really taking a good look at myself and where I am right now.

This is why I decided I need to create a game plan of sorts, because I'm the kind of person that needs that. If I don't monitor myself at all, I gain, if I am aware of what I am doing, I maintain or lose, and if I have a goal, I lose quicker.

I looked at all sorts of tips, tricks, diets and challenges and I don't really know how I feel about any of them. I like the idea of the ABC diet so I went through the numbers and if you take the mean its 250 cal a day, or 1750 cal a week, for 50 days alternating the caloric intake with the occasional fasting day.

My main issue with this plan, or most of them really, is that I know I'll end up drinking, which is essentially an unplanned binge, considering the amount of calories in alcohol. This is especially problematic as a lot of the time when I go out its a fairly last minute thing and I haven't really prepared for it, in terms of restricting so I can "afford" it.

So my plan is to allot one drinking night a week or something to that effect, where I have set aside some amount of my calories for the week. That way my caloric intake will still remain where it should.

Logically I should just not go out drinking and just follow a plan with lovely balanced diet of healthy foods and incorporate regular exercise for a fairly drawn out period of time to reach my goals and really change my life, but lets be real here. I'm a student, I want to enjoy myself, I have academic obligations that take over my life from time to time and just add to that the fact I'm impatient, self-hating and frankly a little crazy sometimes.

(Side note: I don't mean to degrade lose weight any specific manner. I'm more making fun of myself for not ever being able to do something the "right", healthy, and/or "normal" way.)

Anyways, I still need to work out the bugs in my plan and figure out a way to adjust it but in the mean time I"ll be doing the ABC diet. 

Playing catch up

Alright so I feel I should do a little bit of catch up about my past month or so.

I went to the Dominican for a week  with some friends and it was absolutely amazing. Basically just relaxed, spent time in the sun, played in the ocean, had a constant buzz since drinks were free and of course, ate just about everything. I also went banana boating, para-sailing, and water fall jumping which were so much fun.

That's me, day drunk and loving life after spending a good portion of the day at the aqua bar. Good trip overall.

During the trip I felt alright about myself. I mean the people I went with are far from out of shape so that made me self conscious at times, but I decided to let that go and just enjoy myself rather than stress about it. I know that have have made progress in the last year but I can't help but still feel the "before" picture.

My grades for this semester were really good. Finally a straight A student again, which I haven't been since high school , so I'm particularly excited about that.

As for my love life, not really much to say, not that there is ever much to say. I had been on a bit of a kick where I decided to just not get involved with anyone in any way and focus my attention elsewhere, like on school.

I had once upon a time been in a serious long term relationship that ended terribly so I decided to take time for myself, rather than do the typical rebound thing. That was about a year ago, well technically 7 months ago if you count a very stupid decision to be with him one last time. Either way that was the last guy I dated and slept with so its been awhile.

After that though during the later part of the summer I thought it would be a good idea to put myself out there but I ended up meeting one too many douchey jock frat boy types who just wanted sex so I again swore off men. Mostly because after being with someone I actually cared about I wasn't exactly down for a one night stand or casual hook-up.

Fast-forward to a brief girl crush that couldn't go anywhere because of a complicated situation and you're pretty much caught up.

Sorry for the long winded and rambling summary of my love life but it brings me to what I originally had to say. I have been single for awhile, I have not had sex in awhile, I have only been involving myself with people who only want something casual. I am stupid. As part of my periodic review of my life I have determined I am finally at a point where I am open to actually being involved with someone.

Now all I have to do it wait for him/her to show up. Too bad it doesn't work that way eh? In all seriousness though, I"m not desperate for or on need of a relationship, because I am perfectly fine on my own, but it'd be nice sometimes, or at the very least it would add a little excitement.

Anyways,

I decided to come back and write this because it keeps me somewhat sane. It also keeps me on track with my goals, which at the moment I need as I have been a little lazy with. I'm still trying to get down to 125.  I'll post an updated picture once I don't feel so disgusting. Wish me luck.

Back after month long hiatus

So I haven't really been present for the past month or so. Been busy with family, friend, vacation, and getting back into my routine at school.

Nothing much to say really. My goals were kind of put on hold because of the holidays and vacation I went on, as it turns out it is very hard to lose weight on holidays, but no surprise there.

My weight is back up to about 133 right now but I'm working on getting that back down.