So it's been awhile since I posted and I must apologize for that, but my absence wasn't just due to laziness or forgetfulness. I've been away in a fairly remote area for work with limited Internet access for the past 3 months and have been incredibly busy. I am back in civilization now and will be home soon. I couldn't wait to post this, seeing as I am currently in bed posting from my phone. Being back in society and being subject to everyday influences (be it Facebook, the media, friends and frenemies, or simply seeing mirrors again) has brought me back to where I always seem to return. Not so much a physical place, but rather a state of mind which has proven to be only escapable for a short matter of time. A state of mind in which I may become overly critical of myself and my weight, a state on which I am conscious of my measurements and what I will or will not eat, a state in which I spend far too much time evaluating the bodies of others hoping I might look as they do. I dont really cate about the consequences of whatever it is that I feel now or whatever it is that brought me back here, I just know I'm back with a vengeance, so to speak. I have my goal as always, I'm just focused again.
Will do a formal debriefing and post later. Couldn't help myself. Needed to post.
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