It's a little dreary outside today with all the rain, but I'm kind of happy that it's raining, just because then it's not snowing. I'm so ready for spring. The idea of not being able to hide under layers of clothing freaks me out but I do like the look of lighter clothing better most of the time and I hate wearing socks and closed-toe footwear so I guess it evens out.
I woke up this morning with a loss so I'm quite happy about that. I've been restricting my cals to 300-800 which seems a little high to me sometimes but it makes eating less not feel like a challenge and wards off binges.
I'll be going to see a play tonight with some people and it's supposed to be well done so I"m looking forward to that. It should also keep my busy and out of the house, which I find are key to keeping from eating out of boredom.
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i stumbled across your blog. From a person who doesnt have an eating disorder I want to let you know you are already perfection. This is not perfect, it may be your ideal but i assure you when u get there you will be unhappy still because the preoccupation with your weight is coming from mental problems unfortunity.
ReplyDeleteI do not have an eating disorder, what I have are disordered thoughts.
ReplyDeleteDisordered thoughts and actions do not qualify someone for a diagnosis of having a mental disorder.
My analogy for what I am is that I am straddling the wall that separates what is "normal", and what is "abnormal". I can see both sides but don't really belong to either category.
So I guess my reply to you would be that I agree with you. Being a certain weight will not make me happy. That being said, I don't expect it to.
And as much as a appreciate your sentiment of saying I am fine the way I am, I disagree, but thank you nonetheless.